How you do face conflicts within your self?
Lately – I have wanted to do things that I have committed to not doing. Like color my hair, skip exercise, eat M&Ms, twirl some pasta on a fork, popcorn at the movies and just eat a sweet fried donut!
I am far from perfect – I want to do all these things.
BUT what stops me? Two words:
I could do all of these things. I am a grown woman. I really don’t answer to anyone. So what harm can it do?
THEN WHAT? stops me.
I don’t want to spend another two years growing my hair color out again.
I don’t want to buy new clothes because I did not go to the gym.
Come on, it’s just a little taste!
I don’t want to spend the rest of the week craving more and more sugar after being triggered by the M&Ms, donuts or popcorn.
I don’t want to trigger more brain fog, sleepiness or that uncomfortable feeling in my stomach (among other uncomfortable symptoms I won’t mention) just because I did not want to order the salad with chicken at that Italian restaurant.
I don’t want to watch the scale go up up up.
In the journey I have been on I have learned I definitely have something off in my system. I am especially thankful I made these changes when I did for I wonder how off was I before?
I finally had some food allergy testing done (for antibodies in my blood vs. anaphylaxis).
I suspect inflammation due to leaky gut. Fun stuff.
My main symptom has been hair loss. I had my thyroid tested. I take a regimen of vitamins and supplements. That was not it. After a summer long elimination diet of my suspected foods (from the allergy testing) I learned a few things.
I should not be consuming:
Bakers Yeast – yes, that would be in all baked goods.
Brewers Yeast – in red wine that I had just started to enjoy
Sugar Cane – need I say more?
Crab – thankfully I was never a fan
Tuna – unfortunately I was a fan
Corn – that would include ALL corn products (corn syrup anyone?)
Oats – a childhood staple in my diet.
Gluten – is not my friend.
and Beef, Pork Lamb and Turkey should be limited. I do eat these – but not everyday.
Another is I cannot live on chicken alone for 6 weeks!!
Sadly, my hair loss symptoms did not subside. Then, I realized the only thing that I reintroduced into my diet around the time the hair loss started but I did not remove was dark chocolate.
Guess what – it was the chocolate.
I have short white spikes of hair all over my head to prove it.
Whether it is the sugar cane, the cocoa, or cocoa butter I am not sure yet.
So, now I detoxify from chocolate – or I should say recover from the depression of losing my precious dark chocolate treat – I am feeling so much better.
When I say THEN WHAT? it reminds me that all of these things that tempt me can cause so much havoc in my system. It is not ‘just have a taste’ – it’s serious business.
I am reminded that this journey is more about weight loss, looking and feeling good – but being healthy and staying healthy. And listening to my body.